L K
Pain
Pain too deep for words
thats what I feel today
I try to speak them out
but dont know what to say
Grief too deep for tears
I try to cry them now
they fill up in my eyes
but shed them? I dont know how
Pain too deep for words
I didnt know them then
too small to even form them
too young to even think them
too frightened to know I could
No option but to hide them
and now I cannot find them.
LK
Flashbacks
locked up and bolted
no-one can get in
all the pictures protected
from the howling wind
unable to set them free
unable to explain
how they torture me
when I live in them again
wind rattles at the window
batters at the door
my body wildly tremble
and shakes me to the core
one day the door will open
the wind will rage about
the pictures all knocked over
i'll scream and shout out loud.
LK
Promises
I promise he whispered
this is the last time
if you do it now for me
you will be free forever
I promise he whispered
as he led her into the room
I promise he whispered
as he undressed her and laid her down
I promise he whispered
as he tied her hands and feet
I promise he whispered
as she began to cry
I promise he lied
as the others came in.
LK
Frozen
I am frozen
cold as ice
they took me near death
then saved my life
my heart they robbed
my mind they stole
they gave to me
an evil role
the role of hurting
and causing pain
to others inside
this evil game
I was frozen
and buried alive
they took me near death
wanting me to survive
the rat filled coffin
I lay inside
my mind spinning
part of me died.
LK
Memory
Hands held down, bound and tied
struggling makes them tighter
ankles too tied and spread
safer not to be a fighter
pain in places I shouldnt hurt
things inside me I dont know
flashbulb goes and cameras roll
trophies for them to show
wooden box in the corner waits
its horrers kept for m
straps and gags and leather ties
and the hood so I cant see.
LK
Dissociation
I really feel like sometimes
time stands still within my mind
I drift off to another place
when all around me people race
In this place I'm all alone
no T.V., no radio, no phone
no bills, no worries, fear or pain
just me and my world all alone
In this place I call my own
I think of people I have known
I think of things said and done
of times I've lost and times I've won
I can think of friends I'v had
things that make me happy or sad
things that can make me smile
its nice to stay for a while
In this place im a child that plays
its good to dream of happy days
I'm not a mother or a wife
inside me is another life
In this place where time is still
I'm never hurt or never ill
I'm never laughed at to break my heart
no-one has torn my life apart.
In this place I cannot stay
I have to face the pain some day
as time and years go on bye
theres so many tears I've yet to cry.
LK
